Funny what perspective does to you.
This morning I woke up and my heart was pouring love and gratitude. Literally. Not just saying it.
While I was still in that state of semi-vigil my mind and my higher-self had a look at the last “20-something” years of my life and mostly looked at the last 2.
A feeling of gratitude overcame me and I understood what a gift all the hardships I have been through the past years have been.
I am a spiritual woman with an inner journey that started during my teenage years, therefore I understand the concept of gratitude for hard times from a mental standpoint, but it is not always easy to shift the knowledge into experience, emotions, and feelings.
I have also revisited my past, my very past PAST, with the help of other coaches and healers and masters, with different tools and approaches such as psychotherapy, meditation, shamanic healing, Osho Prana Healing (energy chakra clearing), Aura-Soma (healing with colors), releasing of cellular memories, and more… I have come at it from every single angle I could gain perspective from.
Through this process I have gained more love for myself and for others, I have dropped judgment and I have learned empathy and compassion.
Excluding the last month where things have changed profoundly, I can clearly state that the last 2 years of my life have been on many levels, mostly the levels that pertain to my own personal power, THE HARDEST ONES.
Why?
Because having a loving soul-caring big-hearted grounded man by my side (yes all of that), that was holding the space for me to safely let go of control and dive even deeper, all shit came lose (pardon my French).
So I dove deep into the very depths of the darkest of nights of the soul… and gave it my all. As you have probably heard before, embracing the darkness in you and allowing it to come inside, you actually dissolve the darkness and allow light to come in. Yup, it is counterintuitive but it works this way.
The underlying key element in this alchemic process is TRUST in life, unshakeable faith in yourself and mostly in the fact that the universe, Source, God (you give it the name that works for you) has your back and wants the best for you. THIS IS THE KEY POINT.
The universe wants what is best for you, and while you are walking through your shadow side, and since you might not remember this and at times may not even believe this is the case, you throw a tantrum to the universe! [Smile] You know what I am talking about. You stamp your feet, and you yell, and you resist, and the more you do this the more you stay where you are! I love the ironic sense of humor of the universe. [Smile – Smile – Smile]
However, when you relentlessly keep at it, when you surf the waves of doubt, when you always, tenaciously come back to that space of trust while holding your vision, you eventually make it through to the other side.
I was telling you about this morning… As I was lying in bed I understood at a cellular level the priceless gift I have been given by walking in my “hardship” shoes.
As I now move forward into a shining future, manifesting more and more the vision of success I have for my heart-centered soulful coaching business, I realize the powerful empathy and understanding that I carry within me, beyond all my training, professional career, certifications and healing path.
I was there, I know what it means to visit the darkest pit, a few examples below:
*there were times when I only had cents to put food on the table for my sons,
*there was that when I failed in the launch of what I had wrongly perceived was my dream holistic center,
*other moments I felt stuck on a plateau and nothing I was doing seemed to bring results,
* those years with the abusive husband father of my children
* I fell in the hole of the credit matrix
* Many more dark deep black times of depression
The fact that I got back up and accepted a new vision and dream as a co-creator and went after it, the hardships I went through, all of this and more, is POWERFUL, because when you tell me where you are in your own journey, I can embrace you and receive your shadow, holding the space for you to believe in yourself, knowing that magic is real and that what you think is real is, is in fact, the illusion you chose for your spiritual growth.
If I ask myself what was the most powerful element that helped me re-create a new reality for myself I can answer with two things:
- the belief others had in me when I couldn’t see it encouraged me to remember who I am
- hanging in there always remembering that after the darkest night comes the dawn.
I want to do this for you, hold the space for you, help you remember your power, who you are and believe in yourself.
The end of the year is a time of evaluation. It is human to look back at the “one-year-bucket” and think about what we did, what we didn’t, what was great, and what was not that great. And it is also a perfect time to set up new goals for the next “bucket” of 1 year.
How about you make the BEST OUT OF 2018 and you kick it off by giving yourself the gift you most likely give your loved ones? What do I mean? I mean putting yourself in the first place, investing in yourself and reaching for that life you know is available for you, a more fulfilling joyful life of ease and grace.
Much love.
Shine bright!
Valerie Bottazzi
Soulful Business Coach
Every transition is easier if you believe in yourself and your talent. [Priyanka Chopra]
If you believe in yourself everything is possible.[Miley Cyrus]
